Lost and found / dump

Let me begin my saying that I don't quite like how I write at the moment. I feel the need to take a class on it, read shorter books and generally just improve a lot.

Summer is a tense topic. On the one hand, I feel calm when I think about it from a long-term perspective. Prioritising learning and experience (kind of how I picture my college experience at the moment) as opposed to titular and prestigious roles. On the other, I wonder if I'm going to be shell-shocked by the real world as a result of my lack of experience within it.

As such, I think the best response to this would be detaching myself from outcomes and continue making an effort to be more present. The monetary aspect of things concerns me, obviously; I come from a Jain family that is very methodical about evaluating value for money obtained. Summer in France will cost money, as would a nice studio apartment. I'm currently making no money and not exactly overflowing with active prospects either, while most people my age are either doing so already or overflowing with options. This makes me feel unsettled, especially when my sister and mother express their tension with regards to this with me.

I want to apply to the Foundery's next cohort. As such, it would be beneficial to build something beforehand so as to indicate my interest in generally doing so.

Also need to really get on track with classes and consistently attending+being mentally present. It'll go a long way with taking a more challenging courseload next semester.

Will keep going to YPU stuff and arguing. CP+Progs. (maybe Tues), Wed, Thurs nights booked.